[Shikamaru knows from the moment he touches it; the exact weight in his hand.
Still, he turns it over. Examines his reflection in the metal, and flips the lid. The flame catches; that absence so strong it feels like a presence too, beyond his sight and behind him. Still here.
He closes it.
...he had really started to feel he wouldn't be able to do this again. Had been trying to convince himself even as he looked. Even if he couldn't forgive himself for soing such a stupid thing (you forgot and that really is the worst thing) he could accept it.
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Still, he turns it over. Examines his reflection in the metal, and flips the lid. The flame catches; that absence so strong it feels like a presence too, beyond his sight and behind him. Still here.
He closes it.
...he had really started to feel he wouldn't be able to do this again. Had been trying to convince himself even as he looked. Even if he couldn't forgive himself for soing such a stupid thing (you forgot and that really is the worst thing) he could accept it.
Yet here it is. Stupid, stupid, stupid.]