[ There's a slight, noncommittal shrug, his gaze falling from the ceiling to the table as he picks absently at the edge, lost in thought.
What had he done about it? The answer was simple enough to answer; he had done nothing. He'd continued on living and working and fighting, just with the added, unacknowledged weight of his fathers passing added into the mix. It was something he'd never really bothered to address, either. At least not until near the end of his own life, while alone with his father's grave. Because what was there to say before then? Asuma had never had any regrets about how he had lived his life, because the way he saw it, his choices--even the ones that drove him away from his father--had made him who he was, and he wasn't about to dwell on it. To regret not making things better. To regret not having been there to help the old man when things had got rough.
So he had simply carried the weight without paying it much mind, always reminding himself that death was a part of their way of life. That loss was something he was and should always be prepared for, and that he should face it with a cool head and a steady heart.
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What had he done about it? The answer was simple enough to answer; he had done nothing. He'd continued on living and working and fighting, just with the added, unacknowledged weight of his fathers passing added into the mix. It was something he'd never really bothered to address, either. At least not until near the end of his own life, while alone with his father's grave. Because what was there to say before then? Asuma had never had any regrets about how he had lived his life, because the way he saw it, his choices--even the ones that drove him away from his father--had made him who he was, and he wasn't about to dwell on it. To regret not making things better. To regret not having been there to help the old man when things had got rough.
So he had simply carried the weight without paying it much mind, always reminding himself that death was a part of their way of life. That loss was something he was and should always be prepared for, and that he should face it with a cool head and a steady heart.
Finally, he looks back to Shikamaru. ]
I kept on living.